You're a good son Q. You're a good man. I am sure you caring for her made the last few years of her life very nice and I am glad she didn't suffer too badly and I'm sure you being there for her was greatly appreciated and made a huge difference for her. If you gotta go there doesn't seem to be any better way than to be with your loved ones for it. You will never stop missing her, you'll just get used to it. My mom died a very long time ago. It still hurts but not as bad. That's just the way it is. I hope all the stuff you gotta do about now it goes as smooth as can be. Prayers and good thoughts for you and yours.