I don't doubt that you have low self-esteem. It seems to be the default value for women your age. Posting naked/sex pictures of yourself on the Internet where a bunch of juvenile delinquent assholes, myself included, can and certainly will make nasty comments about them probably wasn't the best idea you ever had. I can only imagine what sort of powerful narcotics you must have been on. Some of the most beautiful women ever posted on 613 have been picked apart in the most minute detail, so you were doomed before you started. Seriously, get yourself a vibrator, a full-length mirror and some porn, and give your camera to a friend who doesn't have one. Close your blinds, turn off your phone and get your freak on. Or go out and get drunk and blow random guys in the bar parking lot, or eat a pint of Ben & Jerry's or whatever else makes you happy, just keep it off of 613. There is no love on 613. You'll be a lot better off.