Move away from churches and organized religion. Worship in your own heart anyway you see fit and never try to convert anyone to what you believe. It is organized religion which has brought about much of the suffering in the world today. It is organized religion, in the form or radical Islam, which is trying to bring about even more suffering today. So belive as you will but keep it to yourself, spreading the word of God is not a requirement for getting into heaven, only your belief is a requirement. Slam me for my belief if you wish but at least acknowledge the fact that I do not try to bring anyone to organized religion.